The Marina, GTMO CubaMoving back to the U.S. has been so challenging. I will have to classify this as one of the most stressful moves we have ever had. We have moved with him, without him, with an infant, with grown kids, across the state lines and across the states... they are all stressful in their own way, but this time around things just didn't fall into place as they should quickly enough.
I guess that's what happens when you move from the simple, few options, slow pace world of Guantanamo to the extreme opposite world of Washington DC.
To make matters worse for me I have not been teaching fitness classes, at least not to a group. However, I have been focusing on taking additional courses and getting certified to be a ProTrainer with FiTOUR, Yay for me!! I have applied for jobs and hope someone will give me a chance to show them my stuff. By the same token, I'm not desperate. I am taking my time and know that the right job teaching or otherwise will present itself at the right time.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE....
We finally have a house. We have an address. Whew! It took so long to get it all together. I was so stressed with the process of buying this house I thought I would have a breakdown. I can honestly say that many times I just felt defeated. I wanted someone else to come in (say the Housing Office, a distant cousin maybe) and make some decisions for me. I am surrounded by family and friends right here in town and many more at the touch of a button, an iPhone button, but still I felt like I was alone in making decisions. Bottom line, I was sweating the small stuff.
I reached a point of enlightenment. Took a deep breath and smiled, it also helped that I started reading funny books and watching funny TV shows. I felt the weight of my stress leave my tense body and just rolled with what was presented to me in the moment. I did not worry about past decisions, did not worry about the "what ifs" and focused only on present time. I had to do this for me because I know my kids will appreciate having a mommy who was here with them, in the moment.
This is our move-in week! I am so excited I could hardly wait to see the moving truck pull up to the house. Yes, I am looking forward to unpacking. I'm looking forward to fall decorating because it's just not the same without the 50 degree weather. I'm looking forward to Halloween, fall foods, and getting settled. The more excited I get, the more excited the kids get to move...AGAIN!
STRESS is your body's way of responding to demands. It isn't always bad. When I'm preparing for a long run (10K or more for me) or a job interview I feel a certain level of stress. My senses are heightened, I work harder, move faster to get things done=good stress. Then there's the bad stress. That's when I stop functioning, can't sleep, feel muscle aches, and can't think. That kind of stress we MUST recognize and correct ASAP! I want the adrenaline rush of the good stress that will help me unpack and get my new home settled in less then a week, guaranteed. In fact I probably wont sleep but it will not be because I'm upset but because I'm so excited that I just need to keep going.
To help me now and in the coming months I started reading a blog called Abundance Tapestry where the author, Evelyn, helps her clients find peace within themselves. I ran across one of her recent articles, actually, I get her updates delivered to my inbox and just recently received this one "How to Meditate Easily." I read through it and realized she was addressing me. Not being able to shut my thoughts down, that's where the problem lies. I can probably only mediate for a few minutes at a time before my brain begins planning something but I'm working on it. She has helped me in the past, probably during other moves...ha ha! But this time I am really feeling the love.
So I must ....
-continue to exercise!
-continue to eat healthy!
-make time to play with the kids and meet the neighbors!
-make time to relax, wind down and sleep!
-make time to meditate!